Thursday, July 14, 2016


All this waiting is just so draining.   Each of us are trying to stay busy to keep ourselves distracted.

Donald is working.  Obviously, he wants to work as long as he can.  It gives him a sense of normalcy in the midst of a lot of uncertainty. 

Both the boys are doing mission work, volunteering at the church, helping both Donald and I with anything we need and spending time with friends. 

I am trying to think ahead and anticipate what our needs might be in the coming weeks.   Cleaning.  Trying to cook some things to put in our freezer.  Making sure that all Tanner's curriculum and lessons are ready for the first semester of school.    Trying to look at all the things that Donald does that I am going to have to handle while he is going through chemo/radiation.  (What a list!)

I am going to admit that today has overwhelmed me a little.  I have looked ahead a little too much.  Allowed myself to think too much.   Long story short... I took my eyes off of Him.  That is never a good idea.   I have had to step back and remind myself that God already knows what is ahead and has it firmly in His control.   I have had to allow myself to put my head in my Father's lap and just cry for a few minutes.    So thankful for Jesus' promise of peace.

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."  John 14:27

1 comment:

Shelby Ketchen said...

Oh, Deanna. Your faith is so beautiful. Definitely don't hesitate to run to the welcoming arms of our Lord and allow yourself to pour out your feelings and receive His incredible comfort. Thinking ahead is good, being practical is good but you don't want to be doing that so much that you lose sight of the brilliant, beautiful now. I'm glad that you caught yourself and stepped back.

Would that I lived close enough to help. But I'll just keep you guys blanketed in prayer and in love.