Back when we had our 40 day fast leading up to our 180 Discipleship Weekend for our middle school students, I decided to give up all soft drinks for my fast. Pastor Matt challenged us to give up something that we would truly miss. For me it was soft drinks. I was so addicted to Pepsi.
Those first days of fasting were so tough. I craved my Pepsi so much. Of course, that is the purpose of fasting. Every time I craved that Pepsi I turned to God in prayer.
During that time I discovered a book called "Made to Crave". The title caught my attention because I was fighting my cravings so much and it bothered me that I was so controlled by such a silly craving. This book addressed everything that was bothering me.
It is no secret that everyone has a "drug" of choice. Mine is food. I am a very emotional eater. I always have been. The last couple of years have been especially challenging and the increasing size of my clothing show just how well I have coped. Instead of "satisfying my deepest desire with GOD" (as Lisa talks about in her book), I was trying to fill those desires with food. Epic fail.
After 40 days of no soft drinks, I discovered that I didn't even miss the silly things. I started thinking, "I stopped one bad habit. Why not try another one?"
What was next? Eating out too much. So I announced to the hubs and boys that we were not going to eat out for at least thirty days. They shrugged until... Every Wednesday we have a crazy busy schedule so it has been a given that the boys would grab a $5 Little Caesar's pizza after church while I am in choir practice. With this new announcement they couldn't do this. Even stopping and grabbing our $1 chicken sandwiches in between sports practices was out. It was an adjustment, but we did it.
Since then I have been trying to make other little changes such as eliminating junk from our junk drawer and buying more organic foods. I am learning slowly. I had to print out a chart (below) so I would have a cheat sheet of what was OK to buy organic and not to buy organic.
This is all a process. All I know is I am convinced that we are made to crave God... not food!